I finally decided to remove this old thing because I literally do NOT give a shit about that situation anymore. At all. Jenn and Jake mean nothing to me now. I can't even remember what it was like to care for them as friends. As far as my emotional state towards them is concerned, they may as well not exist. We did each other the decency of pretending one another didn't exist and never making mention of each other again, and it worked wonders.

However, the other one made the mistake of continuing this by declaring how much of a liar I am regarding the entire situation. I don't know if she's still continuing with that stuff. I'd HOPE not, but it really does still sting that I rolled over and just let her do it in an attempt to 'be the bigger person'. I'm not the bigger person. I'm just as vindictive and spiteful as she is, though I do my best to keep it under control. I think I do pretty good considering I resist doing stuff along those lines practically every day. Sometimes I slip, though.

So, this is a peace offering. If you'll stop talking about me (or at least, trashtalking me to people you don't know), I won't carry on about what you've done to me (to people I don't know). Because let's face it, warning people not to be my friend is NOT something you can pretend to feel good about. That's why I won't let it go. I know I SHOULD let it go, I WANT to let it go, but even now, I still feel this bitter anger whenever I think about it because no resolution was had. Also, that thing you said about me only using Jake as a lacky to 'fight my battles' and not a friend was beyond uncalled for. What do you know about my friends or former friends? Now, if that's what he told you, then fine, but that's certainly not how I felt about him.

Obviously, I was and am pretty ticked. But hey, I don't expect an apology from you, and I'm not going to ever apologize for telling my side of the story. I don't care how much you try to bully me by jumping up on your high horse and condemning me with cries of 'DRAMA' and 'LIAR'. Life IS drama, for one thing, and I AM allowed to stick up for myself, despite the fact that I certainly have a very different perception of things than you do.

I have no confirmation that you've been doing this as of late. I honestly hope that my paranoia is wrong. It's just that when you contacted Swiblet, and he showed me what you said, I've been itching to show everyone just what kind of person you are, or at least the kind of person you were when you sent that note (or notes, rather, but Roslyn and Feimi only told me that you had some nasty things to say, and I didn't ask to see). I did show Blood-Sport, though, after asking if I could tell my side, along with the proof that I was invited to be the Drama mod by Wallflower-chan, and along with a number of other things that proved I wasn't lying (I'm talkin' screenshots here, yo. I even had proof that I left a month after Kharn did. Last submission was July 23rd, and Kharn left June 14th). Blood-Sport management apologized to me and assured me that what happened to me was unfair and that it wouldn't happen again.

I'll admit, when I saw you were the new mod for that chat, and someone started acting more coldly to me than before, my paranoia was set off. Honestly, after what was mentioned above, how can you call me delusional for jumping to the conclusion that you'd take any excuse at all to tear me down?

I would like to think you're better than what I think you are. I know you have a number of friends who care about you. I have a number of friends that care about me, too. Could that possibly, MAYBE, say that I am as much a good person as you are a good person? Does all this spite need to go on? I hope not. I hope for both our sakes that this stopped a long time ago, and the only reason why I bring it up is because I just don't KNOW, and am seriously bitter about how I feel wronged. That's just who I am. If it makes me a terrible person not worthy of friends or love in your eyes, then so bloody be it.

I just want this to stop. I just want to be over you. I want to be as apathetic towards you as I am towards the people who were actually friends of mine once. And I'm sure you'd like the same thing. I have no idea how else to do that, other than leave you a message on an abandoned account that you may or may not eventually read. If you agree, I'm sure you can find a way to let me know without the two of us ever speaking. Tell Irkpreciation to pass on the message or something. If not, just don't respond at all. I'd rather think you've never read this than to know that you're really so... well, I won't finish that, because I don't know the word.

To everyone else who wanders by here, if you want my new account, ask me on my LJ. Thanks, yo.